This Isn't Over Baby Don't Believe A Word They Say

my whole life is a fucking joke. people say “family is all you’ve got.” my family is the most dangerous thing out there. you say it was safe to leave me with him when you knew what he did to you? and when you ask me if it happened to me and i say yes, you call me a liar to win a court case from the man who would have protected me? you LET him do this to me. you practically threw me into it. and i went through it alone. the pain i felt has never gone away, i still have nightmares. but i was forced into silence because everyone told me i was a liar and i did it for attention. do you understand what all of you did to me? who i am today because of it? of course you do. cause he did it to all of you too. fuck this. why me? why? i cut my skin and think about taking my life constantly because of what this did to me. but shhhh, don’t mention it. we don’t talk about it. IT’S NOT FUCKING MOLESTATION IF YOUR CLOTHES WERE ON RIGHT?! fuck this family of lies and deception and covering these dark fucking secrets up, burying them and thinking it’s all okay. its fucking not. i don’t want to do this anymore, and i’m too fucking scared to go to court. my life would be over anyway, you’d all take everything from me. my education, my house, my car, everyfuckingthing. so what am i fucking waiting for. you can bury me with your fucking secrets.   

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(Source: sixfeetundermycock)